Hi from Down Under!
It's Day 2 in Geelong and house finding is tiring af... I feel like I have yet to recover from my uncomfortable plane ride... And everything is constantly changing to the point that I always find myself about to snap...
And Junwei's dad is being a real prick. He is treating us like poor people and taking pity on us and covering more of the rent. To be honest, I don't know what his intentions are... Like, does he even want me and Junwei to stay together? I'm sad that my parents got to feel so 委屈, that we got to receive pity from others... I must really do my best then, to not waste my parents money and all these stupid treatment from others!
Change is always tough I guess. Hopefully I can quickly settle down into an apartment and rest well before school starts. I can't even remember when was the last time I could just worry about nothing and chillax.
Also, I tried to end things with him. But I 心软 again. BUT I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I JUST COULDN'T CUT OFF THAT NIGHT! I stood so firmly for like 3h? Then I just decided to "okay, one last chance". What is wrong with me?! Adora and Luis were so disappointed and I felt very sad like why I keep putting myself through unnecessary trouble. That night I went drinking with them and I just drank a whole lot of shit really quick and was high af. But at least, when I was high, I felt genuinely happy and had fun. Hopefully I don't get addicted to that temporary happiness and can find true happiness within myself.
At the end of the day, only I can decide to be happy for myself.
TraceyWong(:
