Daunting...

Even though this happened about end of November of last year, these memories still haunts me.. You texted me again on my birthday. Since you were just asking about my school work as a casual conversation, I decided to reply. You showed so much concern... But it didn't matter anymore. You and I, we're impossible. You knew I already have a boyfriend, but yet you still wanted to ask me again. Why? Can't face reality that I'm gone forever and never gonna return? I hope that gave you a tight slap.

I'm not mad at you. I don't hate you. I just don't think I should invest my energy in scumbags like you. What's the point? But you made it into a nightmare. Those images flash in fragments. Horror. Shame. Pain. It's like tearing my heart apart and then putting it back together and tearing it further before it heals. Forgiving is too much to ask for.

Cry.
For I'll never return.
A gullible child.

This song should be what you're feeling now. My boyfriend is definitely way better than you. At least those painful times with you will not happen again. At least he loves me more than you did. At least he is always there for me even though I was with you.

Tracey Wong (:
P.S: Don't worry. I'm way happier with him now. So suck on that!

Regrets from daunting memories...

Ever since it ended... Ever since the magic stopped... Ever since empty promises were made... I can't get over it. I've been telling myself that holding on to them is of no use. But you're just too close to impossible to let go. All the memories... I miss you so much. I thought we were suppose to be friends again. You promised...

Scenes from Day 1 kept flashing through my mind. It hurts. It's like you've cast a shadow over me. Daunting memories... I don't wish to remember them anymore. I wanna leave the past with the past. But fragments kept coming back. I wanna move on. But how when there's Hurt tagging beside me?

We weren't meant to be from the very moment we spoke. You were a lesson, not a blessing. If only I figured that out earlier... But time doesn't wait for people filled with regrets. "Move on." is the only advice one could give. But it is a million times easier said than done. Have you moved on? I hope you have because I just want you to be happy. That's all that matter :)

Stay strong!
Tracey Wong (: