Heartbroken....

Today was normal until I went home... So solemn. As always. Everyoone did their own stuff. I decided to start doing my holiday homework... I was like in my own world... No one was disturbing me, except the opening the closing of the room door. I was, for once, enjoying myself while doing work. But the sudden screamings and shoutings brought me back to reality. I was still stuck in that place that was suppose to be my home... Everything came back to me. I realised my brother wasn't home yet and that the shouting and screaming must be because of him. As usual, he failed his Chinese again... And that very typical father was being worried in the wrong manner again. He didn't bother asking my brother for an explanation for the past few days. And my brother, being his stubborn self, didn't give a shit about the whole matter. Things somehow got worst and thus what happen today. All I heard was my father shouting Chinese to my mum about my brother. My mum was trying so hard to hold herself together. That voice. It was filled with pain and sorrow. That agony I heard in her voice - it pricks my heart. All I could do was to sit at my study table and listen. I didn't dare to open the door to help my mum, to protect her from the hurt my father is inflicting on her. That begging voice I heard, it hit me hard. I felt stupid... Helpless. All I could do was to sit. I could have done more. But all that ever happened was warm droplets rolling down my cheek. I felt like an idiot. Till now, I still have no idea where my brother is. I can't sleep. But when I look at my work, I feel like crying again... All that crap is coming back to me... Why? Argh~!!! Screw it! Really hate what's happening now... I just want my brother back now, safe and sound.... Found out something I shouldn't have. Or rather, it's better if I didn't know... Feel like using a VooDoo doll to curse you. But I shall not be mean. :) But I really wish you would text me. Soon. You make everything seem more positive... (: Hope everyone isn't having such a bad start for the holidays. :) Sleep early peeps! TraceyWong P.S. I hope all this nonsense will end soon... :'[