sighs...

So I've been wondering why I'm studying for as the exams are round the corner and I cant find a good reason. All I knew was that I'm doing it because my dad ask me to. But when I do well for examinations, i get no shit! Getting all As and Bs for him which was like a miracle for me but he just went back on his word. He promise to give me a new phone but now I get no shit. Not even a praise or encouragement! It wont hurt to say "keep up the good work" right?

Really curious sometimes about how he feels about me. It's like he only has my sister in his eyes! Left at the side lines everytime. It gets so lonely sometimes. And I guess no one will ever understand how I feel because they would just tell me they go through the same thing and that it's life. I understand that but all I want is just my dad to shower some concern for me. And not for the sake of my future! Also, I keep sensing that my friend hates me. Like I'm some sort of attention seeker. Everyone wants to seek attention one way or the other. I just want my parents' attention. Why is it just so damn hard?!

Jagabee has been like showing concern to me. Told him that he shouldn't cause I don't wanna fall deeper in love. Feel like kidnapping him sometimes and threaten him to tell me how he feel about me and stop leading me on. LOL. Sound so violent o.o

Hope all these exams nonsense can pass on faster! Cant wait for the end of year to come knocking on my door! Will definitely welcome it with both my arms wide open!!! :P hope you guys are enjoying life as it is! :D

TraceyWong!