Heartbroken....

Today was normal until I went home... So solemn. As always. Everyoone did their own stuff. I decided to start doing my holiday homework... I was like in my own world... No one was disturbing me, except the opening the closing of the room door. I was, for once, enjoying myself while doing work. But the sudden screamings and shoutings brought me back to reality. I was still stuck in that place that was suppose to be my home... Everything came back to me. I realised my brother wasn't home yet and that the shouting and screaming must be because of him. As usual, he failed his Chinese again... And that very typical father was being worried in the wrong manner again. He didn't bother asking my brother for an explanation for the past few days. And my brother, being his stubborn self, didn't give a shit about the whole matter. Things somehow got worst and thus what happen today. All I heard was my father shouting Chinese to my mum about my brother. My mum was trying so hard to hold herself together. That voice. It was filled with pain and sorrow. That agony I heard in her voice - it pricks my heart. All I could do was to sit at my study table and listen. I didn't dare to open the door to help my mum, to protect her from the hurt my father is inflicting on her. That begging voice I heard, it hit me hard. I felt stupid... Helpless. All I could do was to sit. I could have done more. But all that ever happened was warm droplets rolling down my cheek. I felt like an idiot. Till now, I still have no idea where my brother is. I can't sleep. But when I look at my work, I feel like crying again... All that crap is coming back to me... Why? Argh~!!! Screw it! Really hate what's happening now... I just want my brother back now, safe and sound.... Found out something I shouldn't have. Or rather, it's better if I didn't know... Feel like using a VooDoo doll to curse you. But I shall not be mean. :) But I really wish you would text me. Soon. You make everything seem more positive... (: Hope everyone isn't having such a bad start for the holidays. :) Sleep early peeps! TraceyWong P.S. I hope all this nonsense will end soon... :'[

How I wish...

How I wish you will tell me how you feel about me and stop misleading me. You freaking piece of shit! Gah~!!! But, truthfully, what's so good about you?? Really don't know why I lyk you... You're just so nice...




Argh~
How I wish I can just use a damn freaking gun to shoot you down!!! You totally messed with my life ever since we started to talk that day.
How I wish I could return to the past and not know you. I really shouldn't have sat there...
How I wish I can just unfriend you... Honestly, you are kinda the nicest guy I've ever liked... Hope we can just remain at that :D

So sian... Gotta wake up real early tomorrow for National Day Parade. Today's celebration at school was AWESOME yo!!! Had real lots of fun. :D Best part is I could see him :D OMG. I shouldn't be thinking about him again. X.x Hope you guys had fun too!!! :D




ByeBye,
TraceyWong
P.S Happy National Day!!!

Complicated~!

I really don't understand why people must complicated things... Just a normal friendship becoming into enmity and hatred. Really hate life...

Scenario:
A doesn't like B because B is annoying and likes to exaggerate things to the point that even the blind can see through her lies. Even I don't really like B but I try to be neutral. A keeps complaining about B to me... And it's always the same thing over again. Now, C and D claims that they do not like B too. But they are still kinda close to B. OMG, what's wrong with you people?? If you guys don't like someone, why still stay with that person??
Since B and D are really close, B always tell things to D. Once, B told D that she didn't like A and some other stuff that ain't true about A. A got really angry. Even I was scared of A at that time. A kept saying she wanna quit. I wanna quit too. But I'm just staying because I feel very proud about it. And I have more reasons why I wanna quit.
1. I don't wanna be like the middle person anymore. I hate having to keep secrets from others especially from my good/close friends, like A. But C keeps telling things to me that C says I can't say to A...
2. I more and more don't like B le... Maybe it's influence from A but I have to agree that B is annoying.
3. I don't wanna waste my Saturdays liddat. I still need to study and complete my homework, you know?!
4. I keep complaining about it. Like what my mum said, what for I continue if I'm not happy with it?
I mean like whatever man! I don't mind if you all come and complain to me. I can be your listening ears but don't force me to spill the beans when you think someone is telling me bad things about you. I don't want to be caught up in the middle because of you people!



To that special someone:
I'm really sorry for hurting you although you say it's your fault. Like what I've said, it takes two hands to clap. It's our fault okay?? Really hope you will be that happy self again. I really don't wanna see you sad/emo anymore... Alot of things I wanna say to you but I don't know to put it into words... I'm just really sorry and I feel really guilty about it... Just wanna let you know that I've loved you before. ♥

Stay happy always peeps!
Tracey...

Blehh*

Hello!!
Hope you guys had an awesome first day of school! :D
Mine wasn't exactly awesome but at least I put on a smile :D
NDP training has been draining me out plus today's guides was horrible!!! I wonder why people wants to deny that they want what they want. For example, Eggplant and Sally. These two freaks kept saying they do not want leadership positions in guides but whatever they are doing are so obvious that they want it badly. Especially Eggplant! So suck up to teachers. Oh whatever! I've better things to do than get pissed with them >.< Still got tons of work not quite done. Can't seem to stay awake to complete 'doing' them :/ Hope you guys are not like me!! :P



Two MVs in one post isn't exactly like my style but since I haven't written in such a long time..... I shall just write more, ya? Awesome song!!! \m/_

Recently I've been keeping my distance with two of my friends. I'm still not sure whose fault it is. But I guess I shall just continue with what I'm doing coz they don't seem to be bothered. Well, fine! But I really want them back... Oh God... Ohh well!!! Hope everyone is feeling less screwed up than me.
How I wish I could just go insane everyday then I can enter the Mental hospital and life would have been much easier!!! Escapism! X.x

Joke of the month: From my weird thinking brother! To BELVY!!!!
I: We are going to use the underpass to East Coast Park.
Mum: NOOO!!!
I: WHY?!
Bro: Ya, why? They got three girls going together. What's wrong?
Mum: Underpass very deserted. What if something bad happens?
Bro: Three girls okay de larh! Anyway Belvy so strong!!!
Most epic moments of L!fe.

GoodNights yo!!
TraceyWong
P.S. Belvy hope you lyk it!!! <3

Going crazy thinking about you~~

Hehehehehe~!!! I guess I'm missing you a lot now coz you are not texting me and I have no idea what you are doing. And this feeling is killing me X.X
Really hate your dumb phone. Argh~ Wish you are right beside me now...

Ohhhhhh yaaa~!
Exams are coming T.T hope you guys are well prepared for it!! And goodluck even though it wouldn't be of much help!!! Must believe in yourself that you can do it! Don't give up even before you try it, kay?? Jiayous~ ^^

GoodNights
TraceyWong >.<
P.S. I really really really miss you a lot!!!!

What is this world filled with? To me, it's with sad people living in it. And the saddest thing is I have to see my friends go through their cruel part of life. I realised that I am lucky that I could be with the one I love, my parents would give me my freedom of friends and to go out often, my siblings who would sometimes put a smile on my face, and every other thing that added colours to my life.

But I hate myself for taking all these for granted... Getting angry at my parents for the slightest thing, getting physical when my sister gets on my nerves, giving friends the cold shoulder when I didn't feel good. What's wrong with us-or rather me? Why do we always overlook the part where they are all doing things that will benefit us? Why do we always not show our appreciation? Why don't we just start seeing things on the positive side, like as though it's our last day in this world and that we will never see our love ones again...

Love,
TraceyWong

A dream come true??

Awesome song to represent how I feel about you :D I think of you like every practical second except when I'm half asleep in class :P



Just yesterday, I was having a headache thinking about you and other stuff. Truthfully, I'm afraid, somehow. I also felt that we were somehow drifting apart. But things patched up fast. All the things that have happened between us, they seem like a dream... Wish this could carry on without me worrying about my parents constantly.

I feel as though I'm not a good good friend to most of my friends. They kept saying "got boyfriend le don't pangseh hor!" or "so good lorh you". That few words is giving me stress. I don't know how but yeah... Really wish it will stop but if that's what you guys really feel then I have no choice, I guess.

Another problem is from my parents of course. Though they have not found out, my girl intinct is telling me that this relationship is going to turn out bad. Bad, as in we must break because of stupid reasons my parents would give. I really can't imagine what will happen if they find out...

To Piggy:
I'm missing you alot now. And I wish I could run over to you now. The stupidiest thing that has been bugging me is that up till today, I STILL HAVEN'T DREAM OF YOU!!! >.< Damn it larh. But honestly, I prefer when we haven't together yet. I feel we were more close then. Weird eh? Hahaha. Hope you don't angry or anything after reading this.

To all my other precious friends:
I promise I won't leave you all de!!! I'll still be the same old Tracey Wong! :D Though I know some of it or maybe all of it are jokes but, as you all should know, I take things very seriously. So I'll remember and put alot of consideration about every slightest remark :D OMG, I sound so weird in this post... Damn~

In any way, I really hope all of us will be happy with whatever we have we us now. Cherish it kay??

GoodNights
TraceyWong <3
P.S I love you~!!! xD