I just need a break. I think.

Many things had happened. Come to think of it, it feels as though I was the one who brought it all upon myself.

To hello(:
Somehow I really missed texting you. Things shouldn't have turned out that way. But the last time you texted me, I still felt angry. It is because I do not have a big enough heart?? I hate it when you look at me in school. I really hate that look. That pitiful look that's constantly on your face. Stop it please. I know that it wouldn't happen again but I just can't bring myself to text you. I'm really sorry for losing a friend like you... Deep down inside me, I still wanna keep you as a friend, not a stranger I used to know.

To that arsehole!
Really don't know why you suddenly become so despo for love. Seriously sia. Didn't wanna take sides at first but now I pity the girl. Seems like you didn't learn from your mistakes when you said you would.

To Girlgirl,
You are really blinded by love le! Hope you see his true colours soon!!! You knew he asked for patch but you still chose to accept him. Wow. Speechless. Can't you tell he is just using you to forget about the past. He really has issues lorh! Argh! He should just go die right now :/

Maybe I should just stop caring about such shit then I wouldn't have so much troubles. That's what everyone says. But its not as easy as you think it is! Oh whatever! Just want a break. Just bloody give my heart a break!

Nights(:
TraceyWong
P.S. can't wait for 6April to come!!! :D

Gahhh!!!

Hey peeps! Had a rough weekend... Everything was perfectly fine in the day. But it had to happen during dinner... I was having a horrible headache. :/ My sister kept playing with my dad's iphone4 and I was left with a lousy phone. I could only text. But it wasn't the best thing to be doing when I'm having a headache. Then, my mum dragged my sister along to go order BBQ chicken wings. So, I asked for the iphone from my dad. Straight away he said, "Once she(sister) come back must return to her hor!" FINE... I took it and played superjunior shake. However, my sis came back before I was even done with half the song. She didn't breathed a word. So I decided to continue playing till the song is done. But my dad had to remind me "Tracey, what did I say just now?" FINE! I return to her.

Stupid thoughts started flowing into my mind... "Biased! Just because Teresa can go into a good school, she can have all the privileges like playing on the computer, playing with your iphone. She want go out everyday also can. Since young, you always like that de! Everything also give her the best. Me and Terry leh? We not your children ah?! Only mummy's one is it?? Why you treat the two of us so differently?!" and then I started having worst headaches... And I started crying too... And bad things just seem to flow along. I placed my specs on my lap. I wanted to stand and somehow it dropped on the floor. And it broke -.- thankfully I've gotten a new specs now.

Actually, I shouldn't think that way... I mean, I've just learnt it in flint9. We must see things from different perspectives. Maybe it's because my sis doesn't want to go to DHS so he uses tricks like these to "bribe" her?? Weird but that's my dad.

Hopefully the rest of the week will be great :D And I still need some getting use to with my new specs. Ahahahah! Got Ms Wani's wedding too!!! :D Super duper excited. Heheheh!

Nights(:
TraceyWong
P.S I still got tons of homework not done :/

Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious!

Hey! Had a super long day. Hope the sing along has lighten up your day! Cute huh? :D

My day was kinda messed up though... He and I sort of got better overnight O.o However, today took a bad turn. Really bad turn. I hate the feeling of drifting, especially when my friends say they wanna let go of me coz I've got my own friends and they don't wanna stop me. But, honestly, you guys are the ones whom I really need. He and I didn't talk much today and I was being too direct again! Argh~ I totally screwed up that chance man! I really deserve a beating... Guess I'll never be on his mind. Ever.

The worst yet best part of the day is when I went for dinner with my family. Horrible! My "awesome" sister was being stupid again! Oh gosh! Really wish she was more sophisticated... Firstly, she talks loudly when the restaurant was kinda quiet. When she order, she ordered like she really had a silver spoon in her dirty mouth!

Waitress: What would you like to have, mdm?
Sis: Err... *points to menu* The baked rice lorh! The baked rice don't know what shit
Waitress: Would you like to top up the main course dish?
Sis: Orh okay! I want the cream of... don't know what shit. Er... the mushroom ah?

OMFG! *face palm* it was really embarrassing to be sitting at the same table as her!
When the soup came,
Waiter: chicken soup? *raised my hand* umm... mushroom soup? *dad points at sis*
when the waiter placed my bowl of soup in front of me,
Sis: Ehh! That's mushroom soup! It's mine.
The best part was the waiter totally owned her, "This is chicken soup *smiles*"
My sister was really a big joke! Hahahaha!

Unfortunately, after that super full meal without a proper lunch, my gastric has kicked in. After drinking milk, suggested by my awesome friend, it's still hurting... Gosh. Maybe some sleep will really help. Or maybe the better remedy is that he text me soon :3 Well, have an awesome day!

TraceyWong
P.S. I hope he and I would not stop at my one-sided thinking :/

Heartbroken....

Today was normal until I went home... So solemn. As always. Everyoone did their own stuff. I decided to start doing my holiday homework... I was like in my own world... No one was disturbing me, except the opening the closing of the room door. I was, for once, enjoying myself while doing work. But the sudden screamings and shoutings brought me back to reality. I was still stuck in that place that was suppose to be my home... Everything came back to me. I realised my brother wasn't home yet and that the shouting and screaming must be because of him. As usual, he failed his Chinese again... And that very typical father was being worried in the wrong manner again. He didn't bother asking my brother for an explanation for the past few days. And my brother, being his stubborn self, didn't give a shit about the whole matter. Things somehow got worst and thus what happen today. All I heard was my father shouting Chinese to my mum about my brother. My mum was trying so hard to hold herself together. That voice. It was filled with pain and sorrow. That agony I heard in her voice - it pricks my heart. All I could do was to sit at my study table and listen. I didn't dare to open the door to help my mum, to protect her from the hurt my father is inflicting on her. That begging voice I heard, it hit me hard. I felt stupid... Helpless. All I could do was to sit. I could have done more. But all that ever happened was warm droplets rolling down my cheek. I felt like an idiot. Till now, I still have no idea where my brother is. I can't sleep. But when I look at my work, I feel like crying again... All that crap is coming back to me... Why? Argh~!!! Screw it! Really hate what's happening now... I just want my brother back now, safe and sound.... Found out something I shouldn't have. Or rather, it's better if I didn't know... Feel like using a VooDoo doll to curse you. But I shall not be mean. :) But I really wish you would text me. Soon. You make everything seem more positive... (: Hope everyone isn't having such a bad start for the holidays. :) Sleep early peeps! TraceyWong P.S. I hope all this nonsense will end soon... :'[

How I wish...

How I wish you will tell me how you feel about me and stop misleading me. You freaking piece of shit! Gah~!!! But, truthfully, what's so good about you?? Really don't know why I lyk you... You're just so nice...




Argh~
How I wish I can just use a damn freaking gun to shoot you down!!! You totally messed with my life ever since we started to talk that day.
How I wish I could return to the past and not know you. I really shouldn't have sat there...
How I wish I can just unfriend you... Honestly, you are kinda the nicest guy I've ever liked... Hope we can just remain at that :D

So sian... Gotta wake up real early tomorrow for National Day Parade. Today's celebration at school was AWESOME yo!!! Had real lots of fun. :D Best part is I could see him :D OMG. I shouldn't be thinking about him again. X.x Hope you guys had fun too!!! :D




ByeBye,
TraceyWong
P.S Happy National Day!!!

Complicated~!

I really don't understand why people must complicated things... Just a normal friendship becoming into enmity and hatred. Really hate life...

Scenario:
A doesn't like B because B is annoying and likes to exaggerate things to the point that even the blind can see through her lies. Even I don't really like B but I try to be neutral. A keeps complaining about B to me... And it's always the same thing over again. Now, C and D claims that they do not like B too. But they are still kinda close to B. OMG, what's wrong with you people?? If you guys don't like someone, why still stay with that person??
Since B and D are really close, B always tell things to D. Once, B told D that she didn't like A and some other stuff that ain't true about A. A got really angry. Even I was scared of A at that time. A kept saying she wanna quit. I wanna quit too. But I'm just staying because I feel very proud about it. And I have more reasons why I wanna quit.
1. I don't wanna be like the middle person anymore. I hate having to keep secrets from others especially from my good/close friends, like A. But C keeps telling things to me that C says I can't say to A...
2. I more and more don't like B le... Maybe it's influence from A but I have to agree that B is annoying.
3. I don't wanna waste my Saturdays liddat. I still need to study and complete my homework, you know?!
4. I keep complaining about it. Like what my mum said, what for I continue if I'm not happy with it?
I mean like whatever man! I don't mind if you all come and complain to me. I can be your listening ears but don't force me to spill the beans when you think someone is telling me bad things about you. I don't want to be caught up in the middle because of you people!



To that special someone:
I'm really sorry for hurting you although you say it's your fault. Like what I've said, it takes two hands to clap. It's our fault okay?? Really hope you will be that happy self again. I really don't wanna see you sad/emo anymore... Alot of things I wanna say to you but I don't know to put it into words... I'm just really sorry and I feel really guilty about it... Just wanna let you know that I've loved you before. ♥

Stay happy always peeps!
Tracey...

Blehh*

Hello!!
Hope you guys had an awesome first day of school! :D
Mine wasn't exactly awesome but at least I put on a smile :D
NDP training has been draining me out plus today's guides was horrible!!! I wonder why people wants to deny that they want what they want. For example, Eggplant and Sally. These two freaks kept saying they do not want leadership positions in guides but whatever they are doing are so obvious that they want it badly. Especially Eggplant! So suck up to teachers. Oh whatever! I've better things to do than get pissed with them >.< Still got tons of work not quite done. Can't seem to stay awake to complete 'doing' them :/ Hope you guys are not like me!! :P



Two MVs in one post isn't exactly like my style but since I haven't written in such a long time..... I shall just write more, ya? Awesome song!!! \m/_

Recently I've been keeping my distance with two of my friends. I'm still not sure whose fault it is. But I guess I shall just continue with what I'm doing coz they don't seem to be bothered. Well, fine! But I really want them back... Oh God... Ohh well!!! Hope everyone is feeling less screwed up than me.
How I wish I could just go insane everyday then I can enter the Mental hospital and life would have been much easier!!! Escapism! X.x

Joke of the month: From my weird thinking brother! To BELVY!!!!
I: We are going to use the underpass to East Coast Park.
Mum: NOOO!!!
I: WHY?!
Bro: Ya, why? They got three girls going together. What's wrong?
Mum: Underpass very deserted. What if something bad happens?
Bro: Three girls okay de larh! Anyway Belvy so strong!!!
Most epic moments of L!fe.

GoodNights yo!!
TraceyWong
P.S. Belvy hope you lyk it!!! <3