What an awesome life.......... NOT!

Life haven't been good for me.
On Friday night, I got a bad scolding from my dad just because I touched my phone when I'm not permitted to. What the hell is this man? I just wanted to check if my classmate received the text I send her. I wanted to sleep right after checking my phone. But just because I showed abit of attitude when returning to my room, he came to check on me when I was writing something on a recycled notebook. He read what was (and still is) on that crap book and started scolding the hell out of me. So I just stood there, crying my eyes out, legs got numb (fyi they were shaking badly). He even wanted to chase me out of the house when I was in my pyjamas O.O awesome dad I have eh?

Because of that fateful incident, he took my brother's phone plus mine. :[ extreme sad life, he claim that he gives us the best (fine, I agree but they are all materialistic items) but that's not what I really want deep down inside me. And I don't think he will ever understand this part of me. NEVER EVER. I feel like my life is upside down, seriously what the hell.

When he wanted to chase me out, I was really on the verge of scolding him f*** and just run away. But, I realised that I had no where to go and running away isn't the solution. Like my mum said, tolerate. But, then again, haven't I been doing that already?? He said I wasn't doing well enough in school but I'm already in the best class, what more do you want? And you had to rack up the past. So what if I got 223?? At least I'm doing well now right? Isn't that all that matters?


Screwed up life like this song....



Hope you guys are not like me :)
TraceyWong *dying soon*

Good or Bad??

My dear Fudge didn't accept just because of a stupid promise with Hello. WTH...
He promised that he would not 'steal' me away from Hello. Hai~ I really don't know if it's a good thing or not... But I hope it is though. I don;t wanna think that there is hope or anything of that sort. But now i keep thinking that Fudge didn't really like me from the start. Why can't I just trust him and maybe things will be easier then?

This morning, my dad threw my my things that was on the table on the floor. o.O He say he wan the table to be clean = nothing on the table unless it's like calendar those kind. Then i have a question for my dear dad, "what for you buy a big table for each of us when we can't put our things on it?" I have to admit that i did left my things all over the table but if i kept my things properly and there was just my bag on it, why must you still throw it on the floor?? He did the same to my brother's bag when it's already very neat compared to mine. My brother only had his bag on the table and it was for his tuition. I have no idea why i have such a weird dad!!! And he had to confiscate my phone when i was feeling not so good about yesterday... How awesome can my day get???

I still got 8 newspaper article to do and I have nothing to write about the articles....
Damn~ I seriously need help :[
TraceyWong

Messed up? Or on the right track...?

A bit moody here....

Fudge say he like but yet he act as though he doesn't... It is because of that message? I hope not... I don't wanna lose this friendship but if it's meant to be then so be it.

I keep having this feeling that you are like the other guy, would contact me lesser when it comes to an end... I don't wish to remember such a jerk but you keep reminding me of that times with him... Must you do that?

You were like the 'him' in this song... Can you remain that way...?

According to you by Orianthi


getting tired...
tracey wong not liking 3/8

back from CAMBODIA!!!

Haha. too much to tell so if you wanna know, best is just ask me easier to explain everything :D
overall, only one word, FUN!!!!
hope you guys enjoyed your holidays so far :)
see ya guys soon!!!

byebye
tracey wong <3 cambodia!!!

Hate whatever I'm feeling now. How weird to be feeling two feelings at the same time. I feel so mixed up. Not lost, I'm heading towards what's I'm suppose to, i guess? I just have to choose one direction. Life is like a race or journey. We have to make many decisions. Now, I deciding too, between double science or combined. I'm stuck. I feel that both are equally good choices. But one wrong move may cost me alot. Why don't I guess take a gamble? Maybe things will just work out fine. I don't know for sure but no matter what things will work out fine, right?

I kind of feel much better after watching a video Ryan post on fb about an angry boy playing counter strike. I have no idea how they got the video but it's CRAZY! Haha I feel that the boy have no hope and I still got, alot too! I should just let nature take its course and discuss this with my parents again, since I only discussed with my mum.

GoodNights
TraceyWong

This is bad...

Need serious opinions on my subject combination.

Current choice:
compulsory subj> English, MT, Elementary Math, Literature
humanties> Social studies+Geography
Extra> Additional Math, DnT

Opinion I've got:
Mum> take bio larh. quite interesting what learn about your body parts
(why would i wan to learn about my body parts? o.O)
Adora> take combine!!!! go same class as me but i oso wan you go double T.T
Samantha> tracey take combine!!! i wan go same class as you
Ernest Tan> bio is about common sense. physics is formula. chem is memorise de
(dun quite get the part about common sense o.O)
Angus> POA easy to score if you listen in class
(i kind of forgot what else he said)
Sherrill> double easier for me. i take chem and bio
Dong Sheng> take double better coz easier for poly/jc
Sherwyn> i taking double le.
Jia Hao> take triple science! can take more courses in jc
(wth just like what dad said)

at the very end its still my choice which makes it god damn fustrating >.<
kind of starting to emo :(:(:(
hope you all made your choice le...
TraceyWong

Those words that kept repeating in my head... I might just burst one day because of hearing too much of the same old boring nags. I thought only women would nag but my dad prove it wrong. He always find things to nag at me and my siblings... but WHY??? When I'm texting he say I dun work hard even and grab my phone away. When i try to sleep more because i don't want to fall asleep in class, he always wake me up before 10.30am on weekends. He kept reminding me that I didn't did what he expected(like i wasn't shock with my results). That feeling, so hard to explain, I doubt he could understand. Thinking that things might just get better when I'm at a new environment, it didn't. Results still matter more to him. I know it will secure something for me but is it want I really want at the very end?

Exam's over yet i don't relaxed... Everyone is feeling that way. I suppose its because it's the streaming year? And I bet i will do worst than last year and my pathetic dad will start nagging again, "see, ask you study don't want. Now get so bad results larh cannot get into triple science larh" but I'm not interested in triple science... So why study it and make yourself suffer??? Why can't I do what I want to? At least I know what I want to be right? :D

I'm reading an awesome book now. Borrowed it last Thursday, read practically half of it le :):) BIG improvement for reading. Hahaha. Three Wishes is about a girl, Rose, who goes to France to meet her long-lost grandfather. During her stay, many things happen to her - she is smitten by a guy, Charlie(quite an awful name no offence), and her life is in danger. Romance kind of mystery book, AWESOME.

Good luck to everyone for getting good results and hope your parents don't scold? Hahaha. The movie The Other Guys isn't very nice. Quite some parts are boring and too much sick stuff? Have fun no matter what, don't stress out.

Byebye
TraceyWong
PS: good luck to those taking 'O' levels :D