Daunting...

Even though this happened about end of November of last year, these memories still haunts me.. You texted me again on my birthday. Since you were just asking about my school work as a casual conversation, I decided to reply. You showed so much concern... But it didn't matter anymore. You and I, we're impossible. You knew I already have a boyfriend, but yet you still wanted to ask me again. Why? Can't face reality that I'm gone forever and never gonna return? I hope that gave you a tight slap.

I'm not mad at you. I don't hate you. I just don't think I should invest my energy in scumbags like you. What's the point? But you made it into a nightmare. Those images flash in fragments. Horror. Shame. Pain. It's like tearing my heart apart and then putting it back together and tearing it further before it heals. Forgiving is too much to ask for.

Cry.
For I'll never return.
A gullible child.

This song should be what you're feeling now. My boyfriend is definitely way better than you. At least those painful times with you will not happen again. At least he loves me more than you did. At least he is always there for me even though I was with you.

Tracey Wong (:
P.S: Don't worry. I'm way happier with him now. So suck on that!

Regrets from daunting memories...

Ever since it ended... Ever since the magic stopped... Ever since empty promises were made... I can't get over it. I've been telling myself that holding on to them is of no use. But you're just too close to impossible to let go. All the memories... I miss you so much. I thought we were suppose to be friends again. You promised...

Scenes from Day 1 kept flashing through my mind. It hurts. It's like you've cast a shadow over me. Daunting memories... I don't wish to remember them anymore. I wanna leave the past with the past. But fragments kept coming back. I wanna move on. But how when there's Hurt tagging beside me?

We weren't meant to be from the very moment we spoke. You were a lesson, not a blessing. If only I figured that out earlier... But time doesn't wait for people filled with regrets. "Move on." is the only advice one could give. But it is a million times easier said than done. Have you moved on? I hope you have because I just want you to be happy. That's all that matter :)

Stay strong!
Tracey Wong (:

Loving life as it is

I feel so proud of my brother! :D although over the years we have drifted apart and even stop talking to each other at home, spiritually, we are still damn close! So love that awesome feeling that he cares for me even though he appears not to! :D so sweet huh?? Weird thing about my family - we all don't exactly know how to express our love for each other. My dad care for us by ensuring our education is able to bring us to somewhere but it's too much sometimes. My brother would just appear nonchalant but he would still do something if you ask him to! Me, I would just care for them secretly. Only my friends know this. Doubt my family will see though. But that's what family is about! Doing things for them even without their knowing :D it might just unknowingly make their day! :D

sighs...

So I've been wondering why I'm studying for as the exams are round the corner and I cant find a good reason. All I knew was that I'm doing it because my dad ask me to. But when I do well for examinations, i get no shit! Getting all As and Bs for him which was like a miracle for me but he just went back on his word. He promise to give me a new phone but now I get no shit. Not even a praise or encouragement! It wont hurt to say "keep up the good work" right?

Really curious sometimes about how he feels about me. It's like he only has my sister in his eyes! Left at the side lines everytime. It gets so lonely sometimes. And I guess no one will ever understand how I feel because they would just tell me they go through the same thing and that it's life. I understand that but all I want is just my dad to shower some concern for me. And not for the sake of my future! Also, I keep sensing that my friend hates me. Like I'm some sort of attention seeker. Everyone wants to seek attention one way or the other. I just want my parents' attention. Why is it just so damn hard?!

Jagabee has been like showing concern to me. Told him that he shouldn't cause I don't wanna fall deeper in love. Feel like kidnapping him sometimes and threaten him to tell me how he feel about me and stop leading me on. LOL. Sound so violent o.o

Hope all these exams nonsense can pass on faster! Cant wait for the end of year to come knocking on my door! Will definitely welcome it with both my arms wide open!!! :P hope you guys are enjoying life as it is! :D

TraceyWong!

Just a fairytale

If such guys really exist, I'd sacrifice everything and cherish him. Hmmm, but seems quite impossible.

Jagabee has been acting weirdly. Sometimes it feels as though something might happen between us, other times, I guess I'm just thinking too much. Haiz. I really do regret upon thinking back. I shoudn't have confessed. One wrong move. Can't imagine the future will be like what. However, I'm pretty sure that I can't wait till the next time we might meet. Thank you for being part of my life :D

TraceyWong :D

我們的那些年

On 6April, I had my sweet 16! Even though there's still a long way to my actual birthday :P Invited damn alot of friends. It was so chaotic at first. But eventually, it turned out great! :D Gun hugged me due to a forfeit. So embarrassing! Heh! :/ We stayed overnight at the chalet. So awesome!!! Watched 那些年. Such an awesome movie!!! :D LOVE my friends so much <3 ton whole night sia! went to Pasir Ris park to see sunrise after that :D

1st sunrise that i witness with my awesome friends :D

FLINT friends & Chingay friends :)

Awesome school friends!!!

Well, we tried doing the 那些年 dvd cover. But it seems abit fail :/

This memories will remain as our 那些年, engraved deeply in my heart <3

Love,

TraceyWong

P.S. I thought too much again. But I just can't stop myself from liking you :/

I just need a break. I think.

Many things had happened. Come to think of it, it feels as though I was the one who brought it all upon myself.

To hello(:
Somehow I really missed texting you. Things shouldn't have turned out that way. But the last time you texted me, I still felt angry. It is because I do not have a big enough heart?? I hate it when you look at me in school. I really hate that look. That pitiful look that's constantly on your face. Stop it please. I know that it wouldn't happen again but I just can't bring myself to text you. I'm really sorry for losing a friend like you... Deep down inside me, I still wanna keep you as a friend, not a stranger I used to know.

To that arsehole!
Really don't know why you suddenly become so despo for love. Seriously sia. Didn't wanna take sides at first but now I pity the girl. Seems like you didn't learn from your mistakes when you said you would.

To Girlgirl,
You are really blinded by love le! Hope you see his true colours soon!!! You knew he asked for patch but you still chose to accept him. Wow. Speechless. Can't you tell he is just using you to forget about the past. He really has issues lorh! Argh! He should just go die right now :/

Maybe I should just stop caring about such shit then I wouldn't have so much troubles. That's what everyone says. But its not as easy as you think it is! Oh whatever! Just want a break. Just bloody give my heart a break!

Nights(:
TraceyWong
P.S. can't wait for 6April to come!!! :D